A day in life with Nicole. She tells you why sports can be hell for curvy women | #stopbodyshaming
For years I was in the gym about 3 times a week and loved the kickfun classes. After four years I changed from work station and couldn’t find the time to go to the gym because of the long working hours and adjusted schedule. Because of this killing schedule I forgot to take care of myself and neglacted my health. The deepest low was when I got panic attacks after some setbacks. There was no balance between my body and mind. My coach recommended me to start exercising again. Twice a week I drive to the swimming pool after working hours to work on my fitness and to clear my head.
“of course, it’s January.. then they all have good intentions”
In December of last year my training buddy and I decided to really go for it. In January we started to work out in the gym as well, besides swimming and also to adjust the way we eat. So it’s January 3rd and I am very motivated. I went to the nearest gym to sign up. When I am doing the paper work two ladies walk in and start looking me over while saying “of course, it’s January.. then they all have good intentions”. Serious?! I look at the guy behind the desk and tell him that those ladies are acting like I have never seem a gym on the inside and that I will probably drop out in about two weeks. He tries to calm me down but with every minute my rage increases.. The nerves!
“A few months back I would have driven home and would have crashed the coach crying with a bag of crisps and soda. But not this time, with my head up high I walk into the gym. “
Two days later I am ready to go. I have bought a new sport outfit and together with my sport buddy we are ready to work! When I am trying to close the locker the first time, all clumsy, I notice the key card is not okay and I go over to the counter to get it fixed. In the mean time my training buddy overheard two ladies talking “Gosh, she is extremely over weight!”. My training buddy let the women know she heard them talk and she tells me what an awful thing they just said. A few months back I would have driven home and would have crashed the coach crying with a bag of crisps and soda. But not this time, with my head up high I walk into the gym.
“She starts to laugh and tell me she’d rather be over weight than having such an ugly personality”
According to my work out schedule I have to start with 15 minutes cycling to warm up. I can see the two ladies with their personal trainer (who is helping them to loose weight!) and can analyse them while I exercise. Minutes go by and again I get more angry each minute, extremely over weight? I am here to get back in shape and as far as I can tell you could use a good work out too, not perfect at all. Loud and clear -hoping they could hear me- I tell my sport buddy that I can keep it up for an over weight girl. She starts to laugh and tell me she’d rather be over weight than having such an ugly personality. I start laughing too and realize that I shouldn’t be worrying about such comments. Only insecure women will be so mean just to make themselves feel better. My fighter instinct pops up and I am trying to clear my head during the work out. A good motivation not to give up. Here is me during my work out:
After a month of work out and swimming I finally see some results of 5 days a week working out. I don’t weigh myself but I check my measurements. I would have never thought I could come back in this sport flow but I am so happy I did! I feel 10 times better. I have more energy, sleep a lot better, I am much more positive and confident and also my spirit is in place. I am proud of myself each time I manage to get my big ass to the gym after a hard day of work.
“What I have learned is that the balance between body and mind is very important in order to to keep myself from that hard judgmental society”
I don’t exercise to fit in a size 2 but to feel good about myself. To stay far away from those panic attacks and to keep the fighters instinct. What I have learned is that the balance between body and mind is very important in order to to keep myself from that hard judgmental society. This way I can get past those ugly comments a lot easier ♥ Nicole
images: theBiggerBlog.com | with special thanks to @Curvy_King ♥ Nicole